~Is there a book~

I remember when I first got pregnant with Maddison I was given a book.  It was a book about all the wonderful things you should know about being pregnant. My first thought was I need to read this? This huge book? I am not a reader. Ok, I take that back I read blogs! I do not read anything else really. Well children's books to the kids. Anywyas, that book told me what I needed to know. I did skim threw it but that's it. If somethnig came up I took some time to look it up in the book.

Now days there are books on all kinds of things. 101 things do with your toddler, 3 days to Potty Training, Computers for Dummies. But what I need is a book and its not out there. Yes, I actually want to sit and read a book. See I need a book on Step Children who have not seen there birth mother or their half sister for 4.5 years.  I need that book to tell me  if it is ok to now let them see their sister. I need that book to be filled with advice on what is right.

Danny and I have talked about this a couple of times. We've come to a decision. But yet I keep going back and thinking about it again. Is it really the right thing to do? We're not just trying to decide if we should buy them purple bikes or pink.

Both Jade abd Abby know they have a half sister. They know she is out there. Jade knows where she lives. Sometimes I think its been 4.5 years why now? The other part of me is reminded about how important family is. I have a sister and can not imagine not knowing her but knowing of her. Often times I think if any type of realationship is going to form between them its better they meet now than in years to come. Then again I feel why now?

Really, I would become a serious book reader if there was a book on this filled with all the right answers.